I've been dreaming of a perfect world, a world of complete happiness. A world where all the little shit doesn't matter anymore. But unfotunately to me all those little things sometimes are the things that keep me sane. The things that mean the most out of 24 hours in a day. This is one of those incredibly emo posts. But I can't help but feel paralyzed by the inevitable. I have the tendency to not really live up to my greatness. To not give my life it's fullest potential. But Ayden has really given me that chance. The chance to be the change that my life always needed. At the end of the day all you have in this world is your integrity. And I can finally instill everything that truly matters to me in my own child. And our future as a family.



Short but sweet.

Only 8 weeks to go!

I find myself being incredibly hormonal. I'm really not a monster, but I can't blame anyone that feels that way right now. My husband is a saint for dealing with my stress related freak outs. Even the girls I work with have noticed I shouldn't be working with people while pregnant. Kind of funny, usually I have so much patience with the elderly and the sick, but now I can feel myself getting irritated. Not anyone's fault but my own. It's not their fault that I'm uncomfortable, just gotta deal with it. No matter how annoyed I am.

So 8 weeks until the arrival of our newest family member. Can't wait until he's here. I work with a mom of four boys and she completely has the "mommy mentality." I think she handles stress a little differently from me, but I do believe that this little boy will change my entire world. Which she has already experienced.

I have his room all ready, well kind of ready. I have a few things to wash and take care of a few little things. We still have some stuff to get but within the next month I'm sure we'll get it taken care of. My husbands family has been so graceous to help us with the things that we need. They're really giving people. I can't wait to have it completely set up. :) I'm so excited to finally have everything I'll ever need. The love of a lifetime, and a family with him. All the main highlights to anyones life. :) That is something to be thankful for!